I’ve been doing this work for a long time.
Long enough that people assume I have it figured out. Long enough that I sometimes catch myself assuming the same thing.
And then something happens that reminds me I’m still very much a student.
Here’s what most people don’t know about how I work.
When I do a reading, I’m not giving over my body or my mind. The spirit comes in and steps into my energy field. They give me impressions images, words, feelings, sometimes phrases they used or mannerisms that were theirs. My delivery might shift slightly. But I’m still me. Still present. Still in control of the channel, moving in and out of it as I need to.
I’ve been doing it that way for years. I got good at it. Comfortable with it.
And somewhere along the way I think I quietly assumed that was the shape of this work. That I had found my way of doing it and that was that.
I was wrong.
A while back I was doing a Beyond Quantum Healing session with a friend a fellow medium and something happened that I wasn’t expecting.
I started to channel.
Not the way I do in a reading. Something different. Something where the energy inside me shifted in a way I don’t have a comparison for except to say it felt light. And powerful — not powerful in strength but in authority. Like something that knew exactly what it was and didn’t need to prove it.
He said his name was Bauli. He said he was a master guide.
I was still aware of what was being said. Still present in some part of myself. But it wasn’t quite me doing the talking anymore.
And then he said something that stopped me.
He said my readings would be changing. That I would be shifting.
I remember thinking how? How could it possibly change more than it already has?
I’ve been doing this since I was four years old whether I wanted to or not. I’ve spent decades learning to trust it, work with it, build a life around it. I couldn’t imagine what else there was to open up.
But that’s the thing about growth that nobody tells you.
It doesn’t wait for you to feel ready. It just shows up one afternoon and tells you you’re not done yet.
So I’m looking into channeling now. Full channeling. The kind where you step back further than I’ve ever let myself step back before. I don’t know exactly where it’s going or what it’s going to look like when I get there.
But Bauli said I’d be shifting.
I’m starting to think he knew what he was talking about.